I just landed in Vietnam after 3 beautiful months in Thailand. I had the best time ever.
Everyone who knows me, knows that my rheumatoid arthritis does not enjoy the cold winter in Finland so it is impossible for me to stay there during the coldest months.
That is why I am here in Asia, and I am so happy I went.
I just need to show you this amazing hotel, Baba Beach Club in Hua Hin that I stayed my last days in. If you travel to Thailand you can not miss this place. It was my favorite of the whole trip.
The beach was perfect just by the hotel, I literally could just wake up to the sunrise ar 6 am and take a long beachwalk and just enjoy the sound of the waves.. the air in my hair, the sun rising and slowly making my skin and bloodcirculation heaten up. After 30 minutes walking barefoot in the sand.. I surely crave dip in the pool, while everyone else is sleeping I just enjoy the time alone, relaxing and having my moment for myself before the day begins.
I start my morning at the breakfast buffee. What I am used to is that Asia is not so in ”trend” or healthy options, they go more for traditional food from England or Asia. But this time I was very surprised, they had so much delicious stuff and healthy! I have not eaten for example chiaseeds with yoghurt and freah fruits since last year! Two cups of decaf coffee and some plates of thaifood, sausages, bacon and more fruits for dessert and I am rolling out! Full, pleased and new energy for the day that has only just began.
I spent all my day at the beach, because the weather was perfect. I had all my time to focus on my clients.. my own workout time would not be until later. The sand was so hot I burned my feets, but I loved it. The water was clear blue and I think I met only 2 people during the hours I spent on the beach relaxing and working.
The sunset came early, I think around 4pm it already started to go down. It was time for me to get active. I went to my hotel room, which was filled with delicious snacks in the minibar and a basket of fresh fruits, perfect I was already hungry again!
Then, I took a dip in my own private pool in my hotelroom, yes you heard right! I had a own pool outside of my room. It was wonderful. I did not have to worry about anyone but myself here. It was exactly what I needed to get a energyboost for my own workout.
Time to check out the hotel’s gym.
Baba Beach club Gym. Oh. It was very good.
Aircondition, great machines and even a boxing place! I LOVE boxing but have not done it for ages, so this was a opportunity for me to take again.
One hour I trained and that was all I needed to get my mood up (if it was even possible from how I felt that day already) and endorphines all over me.
I went to the restourant to buy some thai food, they served so much yummy stuff It was hard for me to choose.
After that day I was so exhausted of just happy boosters and the sun. I was so pleased of this stay and the customer care in the hotel was top class.
I am already looking forward for my next stay, hopefully next winter again.
Thank you so much Baba Beach Club for this time and see you soon again!
Because of what I’ve gone through in my past.. 2 different of ED, 3 suicide attempts and a long depression I never thought I would survive. With more diagnosis, surgerys and doctors appointments than anyone could imagine, I do not take life so seriously.
Yes, I think it is the most beautiful and important thing we have, like our health and body. But I do not stress about small things. More like I think ”Will this matter 5 years from now?”
Freedom is for me the most important for me.
I do not have rules, restrictions in life or big plans/goals to make. I am grateful of just living. I train and eat the way I crave and I like it this way. I would never want to live a life with restrictions and rules of how I can or can not live. I need to feel my freedom and the possibility to do what ever damn I want.
I lived a life full of rules and requirements. Every damn day. Yes it was nice for a moment until it became an obsession. I could never stick to a plan anymore, it just reminds me of the hell I went through. It eas just a daily struggle to be better and do more in everything in life.
It is good to challange youself and push yourself, but is not healthy anymore when it goes over the limit. You will notice the difference.
Balance is the key. When ever it is about training/food/work/money/school/obsessions or even being a parent.
Today, I know I am good and enough even if I would not do a single thing today. I am am just a human and I do not become more worthy by doing more. #youareenough
So Many of you are saying “I can’t stop procrastinating” “How do I stop procrastination?”…
I’ll tell you how: Find something that matters to you more than your excuses . Find something that matters to you and you won’t procrastinate.
There’s no such thing as procrastination.
Think about the thing you’re supposedly always procrastinating on… Now picture someone with a gun to the head of the person you love the most… They are telling you that if you don’t get this thing done, BEFORE the time it must be done, this person you love is gone… I’m guessing you’re not procrastinating anymore.
Now picture again, the thing your procrastinating on… And now I’m going to offer you everything you ever wanted as a reward. But ONLY if it is done by tomorrow. All the money, all the things you have ever wanted. Will you procrastinate? Or will you do WHATEVER IT TAKES to get your reward?
I guarantee you if there is something important, REALLY IMPORTANT on the line, you will not be holding back!
You won’t be watching stupid tv shows… You won’t be wasting time with social media… You won’t be wasting time with stupid things that have nothing to do with where you want to be…
Now if you haven’t already got it, the issue is not procrastination, the REAL problem is that you don’t care about this thing enough to get it done.
If you cared about it enough you wouldn’t procrastinate.
If you had a strong enough REASON to get it done you would not procrastinate. Your REASON must be bigger than your EXCUSES
Even if the task itself is not meaningful to you, you can still find a reason to get it done.
If it is going to be important to your FUTURE… I suggest you find a reason… and find it fast.
Why MUST you do it? Who must you do it for?
How will you suffer in your future if you don’t get this done NOW? If you don’t develop the habit of getting things done when you don’t feel like it, what will your future look like?
It’s not procrastination. You just don’t care enough. It either isn’t IMPORTANT ENOUGH or you haven’t made it important enough. So, if you REALLY want to get this done MAKE IT IMPORTANT ENOUGH.
Do not stand for mediocrity! Do not settle for AVERAGE!
If you want more you must get to work. If you want more you must find a bigger REASON for your life.
A reason that will ensure ZERO PROCRASTINATION. ZERO HESITATION. Because you KNOW why you’re doing this. When you know WHY you are doing this you can bare any PAIN, you can endure any suffering, you can outlast any failures.
PICTURE all the negative outcomes in the future that WILL come if you don’t do this. Write down WHY YOU MUST DO THIS. WRITE down all the great things that could happen if you just dive in, and start taking action.
You will KEEP GOING, because you know success is coming.
You KNOW you will not stop until you get it.
DO NOT STOP UNTIL YOU GET IT. FIND THAT REASON LIVE FOR THAT REASON DO NOT STOP UNTIL YOU GET WHAT YOU WANT!
“I MUST DO THIS” “I CAN DO THIS” “I WILL DO THIS!”
FIND THAT REASON LIVE FOR THAT REASON DO NOT STOP UNTIL YOU GET WHAT YOU WANT!
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This is a message to everyone struggling with an Eating Disorder or depression.
My road to where I am today has not been the easiest or quickest one. I struggled several of years before I will even got one little step forward.
When I was 14, I got anorexia and needed to escape from the hospital with the police and after me (they were even going to take my sister when they came home searching after me) to Sweden to a ED clinic to get the right help for me, I was so underweight and my pulse so low I could have died anytime, so me and my parents had no choice.
A few years later when I finally got well, or actually not that long after.. I got trauma from the hospital treatment and fell deep down in depression. I needed to leave high school because I was so bad position. I tried 4 times suicide, it was not until the last time I had my ”wake up call” and decided I wanted to change my life because I never wanted to feel like that again.
I started lifting weights and I was really happy for the first time ever. But as always, nothing goes like a movie.
The third struggle took over me.
I started overeating. It was some kind of escape for me from the outside of world. And on the model trips we never had time to eat. Most of the girls throw up their food. I had promied myself to never do that. But it just happened. And again, again until I got my second ED, a combination of BED and Bulimia. I never wanted to get skinny, lose weight, or be in the same place again as a 14 year girl, but after a binge eating, it was unpossible to keep everything inside. (Imagine how you would feel after going through the dinner buffet 5 times, in the end you can barely breath becaue you are so full of food)
This makes me sick to even think of when other people struggle to even get any food and would do anything to get the food, I was binge eating on.
It was a hard way up from that, in the end my brain really needed that dopamine and I could not be a single day without it.
My second wake up call.
I have never told anyone this, but I hope somehow anyone having same problems could understand how dangerous this illness is and understand to search for help before it is too late.
My second wake up call was when I got a DISH BRUSH stuck in my throat.
Yea, seriously it is true. Dont ask me how it happened. It was probably one of the most horrible things Ive felt. I could seriously feel myself dying any minute. My breath was slowly ending, thank god my parents were home and drowe me directly to the hospital (30 minutes away) super carefully because if it would have been a single little ”bump” on the road, I would have not made it.
This was the last time I ever wanted to hurt myself again. This was the 6th time I was saved and I started understand the short time we have in life. Being grateful every single day, just to be healthy and LIVING.
I hope this could give someone a message out there to understand our short life and if you are struggling with any illness, dare to ask for help before it goes too far. Everyone does not get a second chance. Or a 6th, like I did. 💗
If you’re posting for attention, I can guarantee you you’re doing something unhealthy that will only feed your insecurities, or further drive you into the depths of whatever it is having you seek attention in such a way. But let me say this, I am guilty of having done that in the past, multiple times.
When I think back to the times I posted on social media specifically for attention, it was always at a time where my mind was messed up. Times of depression. Times when I was really struggling to control my ADHD, times when I was not in a healthy mental state. My insecurities were high during that. I was more often depressed than upbeat. It was me, lying to myself and others, how happy I am when in reality I was struggling and having daily panic attacks and suicide thoughts.
Social media can be a wonderful thing. Inspire and motivate people but also the opposite. I am picking on Instagram because I think it is the network that brings out this type of unhealthy behavior the most, but I am sure it is present on all social networks.
Look, you don’t need some great reason to post on social media. “Just because,” is reason enough. Posting because its a moment photo of you enjoying life and you proudly want to share it with others, that is awesome. Capturing a great moment or celebration, that is great too! Found something you just think is funny, or interesting, or something that might motivate others, that is fantastic to post.
But, if you find yourself posting because you want attention, or if you find yourself in a down period in life like I was 10 years ago and you’re seeking validation, pause and maybe don’t hit post.
WE are not BRANDS.
There is alot of business Instagram accounts, their goal is to get attention for the business. Every posts goal is to maximize getting the most amount of attention from the right people so that they take the one action the brand wants them to take. BUT YOU ARE NOT A BRAND!
If you are suffering from a lack of validation and self worth, know that this world is a better place with you in it and that you are of value. I do not discourage social media use for you. Social media can be a wonderful place to feel connected with friends and loved ones. If you’re struggling with any of the above, isolation is not the answer. If social media is your only means of reaching people, please, reach out to your friends and loved ones and do connect.
Ask yourself…
Does the post add healthy value to you? Post it.
Does the post add healthy value to others? Post it.
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Ändå är jag lyckligast här och nu, när det är solen som lyser bakom molnen, de långa vackra ljusa sommar nätterna då jag kan sitta uppe och prata med någon tills morgonen, eller bara ensam, njuta, lyssna på havets ljud och vinden som susar mellan träden.
Klickade hem fyra nya klänningar. Tre stycken svarta som alltid behövs, är det sommar eller vinter och man vill klä upp sig, då behövs alltid den lilla svarta.
Vad annat har hänt? Inte mycket, det är det bästa, att på sommaren behöver det inte hända så mycket. Det är till för att samla krafter och få alla endorfiner från minsta lilla roliga och underbara stunder så man sen överlever det mörka kalla halvåret igen.
Eller vem hänger på med en ny resa till Thailand i vinter? Man måste ju lite förbereda sig 😅
And so with the sunshine and the great bursts of leaves growing on the trees, just as things grow in fast movies, I had that familiar conviction that life was beginning over again with the summer.
When the sun is shining I can do anything; no mountain is too high, no trouble too difficult to overcome. Between hikes in nature or around the neighborhood, picnic dinners in the backyard, running through the sprinklers in swimsuits as a whole family, picking up ice cream to go or making your own, soaking up vitamin D with outdoor projects like new landscaping or tending to your garden, watching the sunrise and set from your porch, and more❤️🙏
De lyssnade på min puls, tittade på min hud, tunga, naglar, frågade om min kost och livsstil, kände på min kroppstemperatur och gjorde en analys från allt detta.
Jag har sedan tidigare alltid trott att jag var typ ”Vata” men enlig dem var jag 60% Pitta, 30% Vata och 10% Kapha
De tre doshorna, vata, pitta och kapha kan beskrivas som tre grundläggande personlighetstyper som bär på olika sammansättningar av elementen jord, vatten, eld, luft och rymd. Bär på alla de egenskaper som dessa två element representerar: Lätt, rörlig, kall, torr, oregelbunden, skrovlig, subtil, öppen och expansiv.
Intressant!
Skall ta deras kinesiska starka örtmediciner till ungefär slutet av Augusti och se hur det påverkar mig!
Throwback to Japan 2013, resan som förändrade mitt liv, för gott. Efter att jag låg på motorvägen, och försökte ta mitt liv, men jag räddades. Aldrig aldrig skall jag må så dåligt någonsin igen, och önskar ingen annan gör det heller.
Magen fortfarande i trubbel. I Thailand förvärrades det mer än någonsin förut, kul.
Besökte gastroskopin och tiotals gånger olika läkare i Koh Samui, där kom det fram att jag hade magsår, gastritis och inflammation. Men min läkare i Finland tror det är bara ”sjukdomar” som kommit på efterhand, och tror att själva problemet är SIBO.
SIBO (Small Intestinal Bacterial Overgrowth) är en tarmsjukdom som innebär att du har en överväxt av bakterier som i tunntarmen, som nar normalt återfinns i tjocktarmen. Bakterierna i tarmen hamnar i obalans och överväxt skapas. Symptom som sjukdomen ger magont, gaser och svullnad.
Vet inte vad jag ska tro. Vi tog inget test mot sibo utan först, tog jag en 2 veckors kur med Gutclear från Gutfeelingslabs, mycket förändrades i magen men problemen återstod.
Fick nu hem några stycken peptider, BPC-157. De som äger företaget där jag fått tag på peptiderna har själv tillfrisknat från magsår och det är tusentals människor som blivit av med värk i kropp, sömnproblem, brainfog och så mycket mer. För bra för att vara sant? Det var nästa sak jag prövade direkt enligt deras rekommenderade dos för mig, ska använda detta i några månader och se hur det ger effekt.
BPC-157 peptider
Läkaren ville dock att jag skulle börja antibiotika för SIBO direkt, jag var super super tveksam. Antibiotika är inget att leka med, inget man tar i onödan liksom, ville inte ta någon risk att bli värre än värst liksom, går det ens?
Men dum, otålig som jag är, började jag båda kurerna samtidigt. Kändes att jag inte orkar en dag till med värken i magen, och så kommer sommaren alltid lika snabbt och vill inte ligga inomhus med pina då alla andra njuter och sitter ute i det härliga vädret, som kommer så sällan här i Norden.
Så nu har det gått drygt 2 veckor, svårt att säga, vet inte alls var jag är just nu. Värk varje dag, reflux symptomer och kräkningar. Inge kul alls, men försöker hoppas och be om det bästa.
Som om någon skulle lyssnat på mina böner, fick jag ett erbjudande om att besöka en kinesisk medicinsk läkare till Helsingfors Ayurveda klinik, spännande, just nu i denna sekund är jag faktiskt påväg och hoppas på en räddning eller någon minsta lilla framsteg och hjälp, till min rheuma, aura eller helst av allt, mage!!!!
The sea has always been important for me. I feel so calm and so like home there.. its always where I go if I feel a bit down, or anytime to be honest, when I am happy, whenever it is possible.
Since I was born, I was in the water, swimming. Ok maybe not directly, but it did not take long before I screamed for jumping into the water when everyone else wanted to eat icecream or play games. I was a lonely wolf, I loved spending time alone, still do, and my favorite place was in the water, near the sea, mostly dyving and jumping like a fish.
I dreamed about being a mermaid, really did, my favorite movie was Ariel, and older I was completely taken by the tvshow H20. Have you seen the H20?
I never went to swimming practise, I learned myself, and fast. I could spend hours in the water, the only thing that forced me coming up was when my fingers turned white, and then purple.
I am really lucky, I lived my whole life by the sea, in the archipelago. I can not imagine a life in the middle of the city, I once tried to fit in, but I went crazy. I need the calmness and peaceful environment beside me. I hope my future home will be near the sea.
My whole family has been sailing. My grandpa and his father sailed over the Pacific ocean.My grandpa even built his own sailing boat that he dreamed about.
My parents now have their own sailing boat. I do not know how to sail (yet) but I love to drive a motor boat. Or swim, of course.
Would you rather live near the ocean a bit far away or in the city next to everything?
We also worked on the cruiseboat to Sweden. It was like meant to be, working on the sea, living near it.
The thing I hate most about winter in Finland, is that everything freezes. And it takes a long time before everything melts.
💙There is nothing that you can compare with the feeling inside the water. Just pure freedom. The sound of the waves.🙏
1 st rödvin flaskor (valfritt, blir mycket godare då)
2 st vitlök
500g morotbitar
5 liter vatten
1 st grönsaksbuljong
5 st lagerblad
0.5 deciliter svartpeppar
0,5 deciliter timjam
1 klyfta vitlök
salt
Instruktioner
Ta fram en stor grytan eller kastrull. Gnid in köttstyckena med salt. Skär de två vitlökarna i två bitar var så att klyftorna delas. Bryn köttet i pannan, tillsätt morotsbitarna och vitlökarna. Häll på rödvinet och låt det koka in tills hälften återstår utan lock. Slå sedan på vattnet. Sätt i buljongtärningen, lagerbladen, krossad svartpeppar. Koka grytan länge tills köttet nästan kokat sönder, ca fyra timmar. Servera med creme fraiche.
Visst tog det emot att flyga hem igen, snö och minusgrader. Men våren är bakom hörnet, och sommaren därefter! Vilken tur❤️
Tre saker jag saknat på resan, 1. Kött, lamm och nötkött, har mest ätit gris och få antal gånger skaldjur i Thailand, allt deras röda kött var importerat och fanns bara vid enstaka ställen. 2. Min hund, polly, bästisen 3. Bykmaskin, har inte tvättat kläderna på 3 månader, och de flesta var svettiga, eller luktade saltvatten. Skönt med lite nytvättat.
Och ja, jag var ett par tal gånger i sjukhuset. 16 allt som allt, härligt, nä men bra hjälp fick jag. Tydligen drabbades jag av magsår, magkatarr och inflammation igen. Nu enbart ren, färsk okryddad mat och typ minimalt av kaffe eller kolsyra. Allt för att hela magen igen.
Skall också köra ett 10 dagars Gutclear protokoll, för att läka ut Sibo och andra bakterier i tjocktarmen. Läs mer om Gutclear här.
A couple years ago I never ate the yolk because I did not want to eat the bird and also for being afraid of getting high kolestrol.
People, media, news scares people away with things like this. Telling us to avoid ”bad” fats, butter, milkproducts, eggyolk, meat etc.. These foods that are like one of the most nutritios and healthiest things that we can eat.
I was one of them, I avoided saturated fats just because I really believed everything anyone said. Specially what we were learnt in school, so I began a vegan fatfree diet. I lost weight, got lack of vitamins, hormone unbalances, just went to a really sick shape and even if I started eating meat again, and a lot of red meat, my period got back. I gained muscles that I nevet had before. My depression disappeared but later I got to know from my stool test that I had no fat levels in my body, my cholesterol was dangerously low. So dum of me avoiding eggyolk, one of the healthiest things that we can eat, just because I thought I would live longer and get healthier, my family has high levels of it.. so It was like clear I needed to watch out my cholesterol too.
it was not until latet that when I added more saturated fat and not only from like peanuts, instead like fatty meat, real butter, real milkproducts instead of fatfree ones, EGGYOLKS, healthy bones from animals that I really felt difference, like a total change on my whole health.
So just because someone feels better on one diet or because you read about everyone that started avoiding some food, dont always believe that you also need
To make some changes. I believe that we should eat a little from everything, not avoiding anything, if it not clearly make you feel worse of course, then we would be much more healthier than what media puts us to think.
Did you know eggshells are super rich in calcium? Would you try it?
Nu är det två veckor sen jag skrev föregående inlägg.
Jag skulle vilja säga att jag har gjort det jag just drömde om. Men nej, vädret har varit riktigt dåligt. Bara regn, moln och åska. Det var någon timme, lite solglimt förra veckan, men så började det igen så fort jag hann sätta foten ut.
Otur hade jag också med platsen jag bor på, lägenheten var allt detdär man vill ha när man är ute och reser, eller jag iallafall, kök, tv, balkong, stort badrum, sovrum och vardagsrum, lite för bra för att va ärlig! I förra boendet saknade jag både varmvatten och elektrisitet några dagar, varm vattnet gick dock aldrig på, men det behövdes inte heller för i Hua hin hade jag superfint väder varje dag och upp till 33-34 grader varmt! Min rheumatism njöt.
Det konstiga är att min rheuma och jag överlag trivs inte i värme hemma i Finland, lederna sväller och börjar klia i mina fingrar och tår. Fuktighet är absolut värst, men inte här.
Här mår min rheuma som om den inte ens funnits! Några enstaka dagar värk men så var det borta igen.
Att vakna och må bra, är otroligt.
Främmande men vackert.
Så tacksam. Tackar varje dag och minut som jag får känna att vara frisk.
En dag flyttar jag till värmen, det har jag lovat mig själv.
Tillbaka till lägenheten, väldigt fin och bra på alla sätt men däremot platsen var inte alls bra. Hundarna som var så snälla i Huahin, var agressiva här. Det är en lång, väldigt lång, och brant backe till mitt ställe, och hela vägen är full med hundar, säkert 20 st.
Jag trodde de skulle bli vana med mig, hundar brukar älska mig. Jag har aldrig träffat så agressiva hundar förut, jag har aldrig någonsin känt mig så rädd, inte för hundar iallafall. Det är som om det är något de inte gillar hos mig.
Jag fick enormt massa grymma tips på instagram, testade verkligen alla metodet, allt från att prata hundspråk, titta ner i marken (absolut inte ögonkontakt), gå med kepp, hoppa runt aom en galnint, vifta med armarna, slicka sig om munnen, låssas att jag plockar stenar från marken, gå med självförtroende och inte visa en ända rädsla, prata snällt med dem och klappa dem, bara gå lungt och inte bry sig, springa iväg, stå stilla, leka död pch allt detdär.. inget hjälpte. Fick massa tips om pepparspray också men ville inte göra dem något ont.
De attackerar mig varje dag, även på morgonen, morrar och nästan anfallet mig, nu har jag använt taxi och cykel i en vecka sedan jag blev biten, och fördes direkt till akuten för rabies injektion. 5 gånger skall jag ta det.
Nu har jag äntligen hittat en ny lägenhet och flyttar på Måndag. Två korta veckor kvar. Ärligt vill jag inte hem, men orka gnälla, ska njuta varje minut som är kvar, också i regnet. Varje minut, jag lovar.
If not get your ass up and go 😅 plenty of time for that 
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